Learning

I am finally learning that in search for destruction all I really want is comfort. 

Then came these words…

Learning to write through the pain

To not smile through the shame

To breathe through the mask

These are the daily steps I take

These are the choices I make

This is how I stay alive

To write it out and let the ink dry on the paper

Instead of the blood on my skin

Because I refuse to let temporary emotions win

To smile through the shame instead of frowning

Because I have nothing to feel ashamed about

I will not own something that was put on me

To breathe through the mask

Because fear and panic in the midst of a world-wide pandemic

I have no control over

I cannot allow it to control my life

But I must still stay safe

These are the daily steps I take

These are the choices I make

This is how I stay alive