39 going on 40
Today, on the pre eve of my 40th birthday, I reflect on a decade that has been overall a blessing. However it would be dishoneset to say it has not been filled with challenges, pain, and deep uncertainties as well. Here is one last poem posted at 39. With gratitude. - Poet Simone
I want to write at least one more time at 39
To see the world through 39-year-old eyes
To hear the sound of nothing
Peace through 39-year-old ears
A decade that has been full
Just full
So full
Of fears and disappointments
But also of triumphs and wins
Of overcoming and coming outs and overs
And ups and above
Above all else
I am still here and ready to see what is next
Ready to welcome in the upright pointedness of 4 and roundness of the 0
That make up 40
that together make up a woman that stands tall accepting her curves for what they are
for what they offer
for what they give
and for the zero damns they give from what the world thinks about them
That makes up the red lip when she feels like it
and the flat shoe
or heck no shoe
grounded in the grass on her own time
soaking up the sun when she REALLY feels like it
I want to write at least one more time at 39
Because I was not supposed to see 39
much less 40 in my right mind
And here I sit waiting to stir a pot of greens
the week before I host Thanksgiving in my own digs
Breathing in air that is clean
and I am free
The only lock on my door is one where I have the key
There is no lock on my fridge
there is no code on my wrist
I eat on my own schedule
I piss when I say piss
All this to say
I am free to turn 40 on my own terms
I think I’ll wear a red lip
I think I’ll ground my bare feet
I think I’ve done enough writing
It’s time to celebrate life now!