Embracing “Woman”

She exhales deeply before her fingers hit the keyboard

And inhales coffee breath

Signs of end of the year job woes

The need to stay awake as nighttime creeps in earlier and

earlier

And the workday grows longer and longer and slower and

slower

Her mind wanders…

I want to embrace all that is “woman” about me

I want to embrace it 

Whatever that means for me specifically

I want to define it as something new just for me

With tastes of the old fashioned because I want that

But switching it up some

Because I need that

I want to be cared for

But I need my freedom

I want to be pursued

But not crushed

I want to truly understand Proverbs 31

And that it is a WHOLE chapter and not just a verse

The time it takes to read it is not the time it takes to be

that woman

There is no Proverbs 31 sprint for me 

And that is okay

To every story there is backstory

The same is true in women’s lives

The same is true of me

I am not alone in this

One day I might marry

And there will be a backstory

And there will be the need for healing

And maybe even forgiveness

But first and foremost, there will be the need for God

Because without Him, forget all the rest

Forget the veil and forget the dress

So, will I ever define the woman that is me based on the

virtues found in Proverbs 31?

Maybe…

But I will always strive to define the woman that is me as

Godly

Godly

As in living to love, serve, worship, and continue to learn

more and more daily about the God of the universe who created me

God made me the woman that I am, and I am learning to

embrace her