Rooted in Love
My life free of shame is a microcosm of what it once was
I don’t carry the same boulders on my back threatening to break me every step I take
The channels once stopped up by fear now run clear
Joy does not freely flow but when pressure is applied just right it is waiting
It has always been there waiting to shine through and claw its way up out of the pit of despair I buried it in
Under the self loathing and hate
The shame and often self inflicted pain I caused to distract from outward chaos I could not control
My life is a microcosm of what it once was
God has spoken
The universe has aligned in my favor and I am whole
No longer people pleasing but living for God and self alone
No longer living in fear
But comfortable in my own skin
I stand rooted in nothing but love to guide me
Love, a universal language that I am still learning to embrace as my mother tongue
It’s all I have left to stand on
It’s all I ever needed
